Imam Muda...

Assalamualaikum...

He whom I choose to be my husband (insyaAllah)...seems so near yet so far..kadang-kadang terfikir jugak kenapala kite suka & sayang sangat kat dia ni...and tanak orang lain...nak cakap couple, bukan couple, sbb kite tak berape gemor ngan istilah pengkapelan nih...dia tahu kite pilih dia sebagai husband & katanye dia bersyukur sangat kite pilih dia despite of everything he had done, his tough job and his sad relationship history. Still remember we start confessing that we like each other a month before his birthday, and everything seems so perfect.

Alhamdulillah...Alhamdulillah...Alhamdulillah

Kite dah luahkan segala perasaan sayang Allah detikkan pada hati ni kepadanya. Kite dah berusaha. Kite yakin dia adalah pilihan yang benar, as u people have no idea how much I prayed to Allah to erased him from my heart before, but He still...i guess He still...reserve a piece of my love for this guy.

That Friday he went far from land to serve his job for 2 weeks. He left me here but I'm COOL. hehe. I guess I'm used to it. Less texting, less phone calls. This is my thing. Being abandoned do not harm me in any way.

Before this....

Friends keep reminding betapa teruknye dia layankan kite dulu, tinggalkan kite macam tu je without any word after he reconciled with his ex, yet why oh why I still want him? I don't blame them, they already did their job as friends, giving advice, be a good listener...but sadly what can I say...this is the matter of the heart...it's complicated...yes it's pathetic...maybe u guys should try to be in my shoes first then you'll know....

Compared to others, hubungan kami ni memang luarbiasa aka complicated. It is not exactly like what they called C.O.U.P.L.E or pakwe-makwe or gelpreng-boipreng or mama-papa (eww) or whatsoever. Mesej tak selalu, call lagi la jarang and I have no problem with that at all, seriously.

Because...

We know deep down inside we are reserving our heart for each other...and like what Abang RR said..

" Cinta yang sebenar adalah bukan takut untuk kehilangan, tetapi BERSEDIA untuk kehilangan. "

sweet kan? ^___^

I love him & he loves me too..We both want the best for each other and we intentionally make this JARAK hanya untuk mendapat keredhaan dariNya. ^___^

Kerana....

" Jika si dia yang aku pilih ini adalah jodohku yang Engkau tetapkan sejakku berusia 4 bulan di dalam kandungan ibuku, maka Kau peliharalah dia, Kau tenangkanlah hatinya, Kau persiapkanlah dirinya agar dapat membimbingku ke jalanMu. Kau permudahkanlah hidupnya dan Kau jadikanlah dia anak dan bakal suami yang soleh. "

Tetapi...

" Jika dia bukan untukku...Kau kurniakanlah pasangan yang lebih baik buatnya. Kau perbaiki dan Kau tenangkanlah hatiku agar dapat terus beribadat kepadaMu. Sesungguhnya Engkau yang Maha Mengetahui lagi Maha Bijaksana. "

Ameen.

Teringin nak amik gambar camni. ehee ;P

Saya sayangkan awak kerana Allah. ^____^

p/s: susahkan nak cari lelaki yang tak merokok, suka masak (walaupun tak cedap) and boleh jadi imam?